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This blog is composed by sarah and kristin. We love to write, love to have fun, and ... are teenagers. That's about it.

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trying to decide that you dont need a guy+watching "shes all that"=bad combination...

anyways, i'm gonna type some poems, prolly most of the first ones. maybe it will make you feel better.
maybe you'll get insight into my life. then maybe you can help me out because i'm so confused over it.

Rain (1-26-04) SD
Rain falls, far from where it originated. it falls far from its home.
to me. it falls down, down on my face & hair & everywhere around me.
it makes my hair wet & my makeup run. my clothes get damp & stick to my body.
i lift my face to the sky & run my hands through my hair. I smile as the rain washes makeup away.
i'm no longer fake. it cleanses me & makes me pure & i laugh with full joy.
i see people looking through the window at my true self. i see all their faces.
some scowl. some laugh. some smile. i wink to all the faces.
the smiles come out & i dance. they dance with me & our dance is pure.
i'm dancing with my friends in the rain. we praise the clouds & seas.
the rain keeps falling. its not a harsh cold winter rain. no its not a thing like that.
no, this is a gentle warm summer rain. an eternal summer rain.
their hair gets wet & they lift their faces to reveal their true selves.
but i could see their truth when they smiled at me the first time.
their clothes stick to their bodies & they smile & laugh & love.
i sing. they sing. the rain & the sun & the clouds sing.
the world sings with us as we dance as the people through the window scowl.
but slowly the window disappears and those people with it.
& its only us & the sun & the rain & the clouds in purity & love.
& when we can dance no longer, the rain overhead stops falling.
& the sun shines brighter than ever, & a warm wind comes.
& it dries us in a field where we can sit & rest in purity.


A Dedication (1-29-04) SD
I dedicate this to you. the you that helped me through.
maybe you dont see, but i know you were there for me.
at one time or another, you were my sister or brother.
maybe things have changed. our lives are rearranged.
but i remember this: you wished me eternal bliss.
only the best for me is what you wanted to see.
i remember your voice. i too remember your choice.
whether or not it was to stay, you were there for me that day.
the day it fell apart. when we had to make a new start.
i chose the road to follow. i no longer feel as hollow.
i hope our choice was right to lead us out of this night.
so we may not talk buit we have our own ways to walk.
we may not always agree but thats how it must be.
i hope your time is pleasant, & i'll leave you with this present.
this dedication to you. the you that helped me through.


Jokes... (2-6-04) SD
tell me now, what do you see when you look at me?
i cant tell anymore. the looks are like mixed signals.
one second you smile & then you scorn. i dont understand.
why do you play with my heart like i'm used to it?
i may laugh, but as soon as we turn, i cry.
so tell me, what do you think? do you take me as a fool?
well this fool's tired of your games. i have my problems.
they're hard enough without you using me as entertainment.
you think i can forget feelings as easy as you laugh?
did i give you that impression? i must be a better actress than i thought.
so when i blow up at you after five other encounters,
dont dare call me a selfish dramaqueen who cant take a joke.
because i'm through with your stupid jokes.
you see me with books and homework. thse are my friends now.
books wont laugh at you & geometry is easier to figure out than you are.
how has it gotten so bad? did i change?
or was it only what was popular? dont expect smiles.
my jaw hurts & my eyes are swollen. i'm too tired.
so dont pity me. i dont want your pity. still,
i wish, for your sake, you dont ever feel as broken as i am



Opposite Day (3-9-04) SD
you said we'd always be together.
always=never
you said you love me.
love=dispise
you said your love was forever.
forever=dead
you said you wouldnt leave me.
wouldnt=ready to
you said we'd be perfect.
perfect=wrong
you said no one could take my place.
no one=someone
you said we were meant to be.
meant to be=completely horrid together
you said you couldnt wait to see me.
see=dump
you said we'd always be friends.
friends=enemies
youre full of contradictions today.
but everyday is opposite day for us...



ok thats all for now. leave feedback on the tagboard.
i'm not sure if that was the best idea, but i cant take it back now... well i could but i'm rushing myself so i dont...
later daze, better lays

~S~
Beauty. Failed. Us.